It has been a while.
I no longer had the discipline to keep writing.
But tonight I just felt like doing it.
Today is 1st April 2020. April Fool they said.
But can't do April Fool this time due to the Covid-19, a pandemic disease that currently affecting us, not just in Sabah, Malaysia but the whole world.
Due to this, the Movement Restriction Order is in place. We are no longer allowed to move/go anywhere freely. This is to ensure that we could stop the spreading of the virus which has no vaccine until this moment. Yet, our country is doing the best we could.
Today we finally got the news. A call and then the official letter finally comes in. Yup, most of us got to go through on Unpaid Leave starting 1st May 2020 to ensure the company can still survive during this difficult time as the Tourism industry is heavily impacted due to no tourist arrival. When things get better, then we can all come back to work as usual. Fingers crossed.
I am not sure how long would this be. But I am no longer sure if I will still be working in the company. But 1 thing that I am sure is.. that we will go through this difficult time because everything will pass soon.
I am glad though. Because of this Covid-19 and the MRO, I have more time to reflect. Some of the things that I realized is not that nice but not bad either. But it surely gives me a perspective to look at. I realized that I have neglected some of the things that I shouldn't but I also learn much hard truths. It makes me feel uneasy. I find myself frantically looking for something to understand what I am feeling and how to handle things. I went to google, read bible passages, talking with a friend, just to get my mind clear. And because of this, finally..finally what I've found is.. it resounds more clearly that what I really need is actually - GOD.
And for that again, I come back to my first love. And I found peace.
