Sara Bareilles - Gravity
Its Thursday and I'm counting the days as my final exams is approaching. Winter is here. And it's getting cold each day. As Autumn goes by, now.. most of the leaves on the trees had fall. It was brown before, and now, it seems like all the trees are dying! But to no surprise, Adelaide is alive with its lush green trees everywhere. No wonder, my friend told me once that she likes winter in Adelaide because we can see lots of green trees and roses blooming in the garden. It is actually almost like Spring where the air is much fresher and flowers are starting to bud. I am hopeful that Spring this year will be as beautiful as last year.
Times do flies so fast. It's almost end of my fifth term here. And I began to realise how short is the time for me to be here. I wish I did more things when I was in my first and second year. And sometime I wish I had one more year here. But I always had a feeling that God had another plan for me. Although there are many times that I wish to know what's exactly God's plan for me in near future, I still love surprises. There is just something beautiful about expecting something that is unexpected.
Anyway, I keep playing this song over a week now. I guess I was in the mood of missing my home. I just don't know why.. everytime I listens to this song, it just remind me of my hometown far away in Ranau. I think I just missed being home. It has been a year now. I'd never imagine I could stay here for a year without going back home. But it was only 6months left, and I'll be back for good.
This song also remind me of a person that I used to care so much. Sometimes I wonder what happen to the person now. But the person was my past now. There are times that I wish I've lost some part of my memory about the person. Because until now, it's still hurt when it all coming back to me. But then, I will not stop hoping and praying that the pain will ease away as time goes by. After all, if I said I have accepted all the things that happen, and I've forgave and forget all that happen between us, then I shouldn't be so negative about it.
Smile and be happy! Move on! Actually I was kind of sick to hear this words. Maybe because it is true that I have to keep moving on and be positive about it. Perhaps the pain that I felt was too much that I didn't realised it makes me kind of scared to think a new possibility- what if I started to care a person again? At this time of my life, I think I am totally not in a position to consider anything.
But then, this shouldn't stop me to achieve bigger things in my life. I still have exams in few days time, and I still have one semester to go. :) So, I wish I could do my best for the rest of my uni term here. I'll be back soon, and I am so looking forward to it. There are so many people that I wanted to meet, and so many things that I wanted to do.
Until then, lets just enjoy this music. And if there is anything that comes to your mind while you listen to this song, feel free to write down your thoughts and share it with other readers. They might have something that they could relate to your story. :)
