last day of my giveaway...

if you still interested in joining my giveaway..you could check on my previous post..:)
ok..today,,i went blogwalking..and look around..checking people who submitted their link for my giveaway.. i have to say that i am soooooo excited and soo happy to read them..knowing that there are ppls who actually put effort on writing them,,i am more than thankful to you..such a wonderfuyl story..funny too..and so inspiring i must say..:)

thank you again..thank you.. i'll try to put all the link together at the end of this giveaway..so that other blogger who are interested to know their story will have the chance to read them as well..:)

ok..today is super hot! yeah..feels like summer..but its still spring?! :(
i think i got sunburnt today..:(
will take time to recover tho..huhuhu...

ok..till next time.. o ya.. the give away ends at midnight! today!

cheers! :)

my giveaway....

nahh...the closing date is almost here!!!
check this out if you'r interested! :)

nahhh..si allyn pun mau buat giveaway sama follower n reader dia...:)

letter to my dad and mom..

This is my story..
Bapa: "Mari kita baca dalam Efesus 6:1. Hai anak-anak, taatilah orang tuamu di dalam Tuhan, karena haruslah demikian. Hormatilah ayahmu dan ibumu--ini adalah suatu perintah yang penting, seperti yang nyata dari janji ini:  supaya kamu berbahagia dan panjang umurmu di bumi."
Allyn: (Senyum..mendengar dengan tekun)
Bapa: Ko faham apa maksud firman Tuhan ni Alin?
Allyn:(Angguk2..nda lama..geleng2 kepala)
Bapa: Mula menerangkan maksud firman Tuhan satu persatu..ayat demi ayat..

Setiap tahun kebiasaan adalah seperti ini..setiap kali ada antara kami adik beradik yang sambut hari jadi, mesti bapa bagi ayat firman Tuhan yg dipetik dari Efesus. sampai satu saat..

Bapa:"Mari kita baca dalam..
Allyn:"Efesus ayat satu..Hai anak2, taatilah orang tuamu......... (membaca dengan lancar)
Bapa: (Tersenyum..)
Allyn: "Nah sy hafal suda. Itu seja balik2 gia setiap tahun...
But the moment i said those words,  i regret it... because after this incident..next year dad use another verse for me for my birthday.

i think i've hurt my dad when i say those. I'm sorry dad....

i think i miss those moments. and i miss to hear it from you. i guess, there will be no more next time for me to hear that from you... :(
over the years, i think i grow up with that verse.. even if you never read from that verse anymore..but they lived in me.. it always rang on my head everytime my birthday is coming...

when i remember all those moments, i'll always smile. i think that was the greatest gift i'll always get for my birthday. no present, nothing or what so ever. Birthday cake is not the things i am looking forward anymore, but having the simple and short fellowship on the dining table before we ate together what mom had cook for everyone, for me is the best part .when dad and mom said their prayer for me, i feel like i am the most blessed person in the world. hearing all your prayer for me makes me smile and makes me wanna cry..:'(
to grow up in faith, to be a good daughter,to have succes in life..
dad..mom..you have no idea how you both had change me..

i know, sometime i am stubborn , and i easily get angred towards the other..sometime i worried you, sometime it is difficult to advice me..sometime i hurt you,sometime i make you angry...i am lazy,sometime not really considerate and go against your will...
but as i grow up..i learn to take responsibility..
indeed..there are many things i didn't understand.. i don't understand why you get so mad at me when i did wrong, i don't know why you punish me when i do mistakes..
but none of them hurt me..none of them i remember..
because everytime you mad at me, everytime you punish me.. you'll come to me and said sorry.
i don't know but..as an adult..i come to realise that..it is very hard to say sorry... even to my siblings.. apa lagi kalau dengan parents...
for that..thank you mom and dad..for saying sorry to me..
for i know how to say sorry to you and say thank you to you in return..
because of you, i always feel grateful for everything i have..

dad..
maybe i seldom said this..but i really love you.
you r a great daddy...
when i said i want a boyfriend like you, i am not joking. i really mean it.
i look up high on you. you r my inspiration.
for me, you teach me lots of things that beyond my age. you simply told me about how things work.
sorry if i asked you too many question. i know sometime it is hard for me to understand, and hard for you to explain,,mcam bila sy tnaya camana kereta boleh bergerak, apa sejarah sabah, kenapa itu..kenapa ini..
but you tried anyway..and thank you for that..
thank you for picking me up at school, asking about my bad day, making me laugh and even giving me hard moments to realise my mistakes. through them all, i grew up to understand things more.. and i couldn't be more than grateful.
i still remember when you pick me up the last day of my senior in SMESH, you asked me..
"how u feeling? this is your last day at school?" and i said "hmm..mcm biasa2 seja..sedih tapi happy.." i knew that will be the biggest step in my life..i am not a highschool girl anymore..and what i achived and who i am in school is my past.. and day you said  the most memorable words for me..
"it seem s like yesterday..mcam baru saja bapa hantar kau masuk skolah asrama..hari ni..bapa aambil ko balik rumah and this is the last time.."
dad..i almost choked when you said that to me..
i know..it must be hard for you when you first send me there..i know i am your little girl.. but then..when you pick me up..you know that i've change..change to be a girl who had her own mind now..
thank you for helping me through everything..even if we seldom talk, i learn by watching you.
i knew you r not perfect, but i learn that i am not perfect too.
and i accept everything as i accept that i sometime do wrong too.
sorry if i've ever made an impression that i hate you..or mad at you..like stomping my feet when you want to watch football or chong wei on tv when i want to watch akademi fantasia..
no dad, i am sorry... you seldom had your time to watch what you like,,and i know that you like to watch them as much as i like to watch mine..i am being selfish if i wont tolerate with you..
all my life you have given so much for me and our family...i came to realise that..
why not give you a time to relax and enjoy your favourite past time too...
thank you dad for worrying for me.. i know,teenage hormones always get on me..sometime i am being selfish and rebel on you.. but you never failed to keep reminding me about the possibility of being that way...:)
thank you for being a great example for me..
i think you r the 'coolest' dad i've ever had.. ^^
thank a million dad..for everything...i am 20 years now..and here i am trying to pursue my dream..
i still need you and always need you dad...

mom,
u r a good mom..
i like to eat whatever you cook! it is the best meal i've ever had for i know mom is doing her best for her children. Terima kasih ma...:'(
and i do want to be like you in many ways..:)
not only being a mother for me, but also be my very best friend..
thank for being patient to me..
thank you for all the advise and all the transparent confession to me..
you r the closest image i could see myself..
maybe you r not perfect but your imperfection makes me realise that i am more than imperfect person..
that teach me to be humble..
and i am sorry if sometime i am being proud..
sorry for doing many silly mistakes..but thank you for making me realise about that..
thank you for teaching me how to cook..
thanks for teaching me to sew..to plant veggies..
pushing me to do household chores..
pushing me to be independent..
now i know..now i know..
that you're doing that to prepare me to face the world..
thank you for spending your time with me in everything i do..
mcam waktu kita pigi beli barang2 masa sy mau fly..
mybe i had my bad mood..i am sorry..
sorry if i give you an impression that i didn't appreciate what you've done for me..
but actually i am more than thankful mom..
i still remember when i go back from boarding school, you didn't tell me that you give me a chartered taxi..i cried a lot because i know it will cost you a substantial amount of money,,but you said you don't mind, and just take it as your sacrifice for me just to see me home for three days.. i will say it is not worth it..but mom,,you make it worth! :)
and i hope you know that by now..
mybe i seldom say..but i am sorry mom..
sorry for making you worried about me..
thanks for teaching me many things..
and i still needed you..to learn more..
teach me more mom..

Hello pa, ma..
Apa khabar?

i am not sure if you ever read this.. i am not sure if you've checked ur fb or not..
but writing this to you is sincerely from the bottom of my heart.
you see, on this day... 20 years ago.. i was born..
thank you mom for the great pain that you've endured for me..thank you for you 20years of patient to take care of me..
daddy, thank you for everything.. thank you.. :)

being away make me appreciate more, realise more and all this thought humbled me more..
thank you for all your sacrifice.. I could only ask God to blessed you both more..
for i am still a child and always be your littel girl..and i wish to stay that forever if that could make you happy..^^
thank you pa..sy mau mengucap syukur..
thank you ma.. sy mau mengucap syukur..
for today..
 i am 20 years old.. :)

God bless you!
Lots of love and kisses..
Allyn :)

its been a while..

Hi bloggers and blog-walkers... how r u? fine? :) i hope so..
my last update was almost a month now. i've been busy..yeah.. my final exam is coming, and i'm doing my last assignment for anthropology today, i mean now.. :)

i noticed that nobody respond to my giveaway..not that i am dissapointed or whatsoever, because a part of me didn't really mind about it coz as you all see.. i didn't really tell everyone or make it official..all because i want it to be just between you and me.. yes.. to anyone who walk around here in my humble thoughts.. :)

nonetheless, i hope there is someone who really take up this so-called challenge from me. its easy i guess..or maybe a bit boring? that people don't really want to share their story.. well.. its up to you to make it interesting though.. i'm not expecting you to tell everything or every detail of your life.. i respect your privacy.. :) just tell me something that you would like to tell me.. i just want to be friend..^^

enuf for that..

hurm, my random thought today is about the flooding information in facebook. yeah, a lot of shocking news and heated issue came surfaced in the fb.. did you realise it too?? me is a definitely yes!
especially about the little Chinese girl who died after having a battle with the injuries she got..a van trampled on her.. and all the reason why people ignore her is absurd! yeah and the driver too! see how cheap life is for them... :( i cant sleep for two day thinking about what i saw in the video.
and also about the domestic violence, etc etc, the natural disaster, etc etc,,argument on religion.. and the politics news..

thank to the vast info that overflowed in facebook. i dont have to read newspaper, i could sit and read them at home. fb got them all... and yeah.. i think people is more aware nowadays.. people are more educated, more informed and more critical in their opinion.. everyone is commenting, everyone is giving their piece of thoughts.

however, a pang of realisation hit me today. i mean just now. that's why i've decided to write this entry.

how many hours we spend checking fb? how long we think what to reply or write or post comment in fb? how long we spend our time reading and browsing, stalking and hunting peoples in facebook?

true or not.. we forgot to really look our surrounding. WE LOOK BUT WE DIDN'T SEE.
that our world is totally in the brink of tremendous disaster. we look at the biggest earthquake in Japan, look at the heart wrenching story, look at the fall down of the strongest economic continent, look at the human misery, war, death, nature disaster.. there's too much uncertainty and anxiety in this world., i am not trying to make you feel sick about them all.. i just want us to realise that we couldn't deny this is happening.. we wake up everyday, do our obligation.. and on..and on..but don't really do much about it...

think about it in a sec..

what comes to your mind?

what could you do?

are you ready if all those things happen in front of your eyes?

are you ready  if it happen on you? could you go through with it? yes?no?

if this is the last day of your life..where you want to go?
what you want to do?

or......................you just ignore everything and just walk your life as if nothing will happen, that its not going to get you soon or never..

its happening and really is happening...

so what can we do?
lets pray together so we have wisdom to understand things that is hard to comprehend, that the humanity of people will not be tarnished as the world engulfed into despair.. 

mengucap syukur

seringkali kita lupa melihat tiap sisi kehidupan kita. sedar mahupun tidak, pernah kah kita mengingati dan menyedari bahawa tiap satu yang kita miliki itu adalah anugerah Tuhan.
sikap mengingati dan menyedari betapa segala sesuatu yang kita ada itu hanyalah pinjaman semata kita di dunia pasti mampu membuat kita sentiasa berasa cukup dengan apa yang kita ada.

pernahkan kita ingat?
pernahkah kita lihat?
pernahkah kita rasa?
pernahkah kita mengucap syukur?

bermula dari apa yang ada pada diri kita..
kesihatan tubuh jasmani..
kemampuan kita untuk berfikir..
kemampuan kita untuk mempamerkan emosi kita..
pakaian yang selesa..
keperluan harian yang sentiasa ada..
makanan dan minuman..

lihat lebih luas..

apa yang kita ada..
duit..meskipun tidak banyak..
kereta? atau wang untuk menggunakan kemudahan awam..
laptop?
mobile phone?
buku2..nota2..
bahkan setiap helaian kertas yang kita ada..
semua itu bukan milik kita..

melainkan milik Tuhan.

lihat lebih jauh..
keluarga..
teman-teman,
orang yang dikasihi..

burung2 di udara,
ikan2 di lautan..
segala binatang yang merayap di bumi..

indahnya ciptaan Tuhan..

pernahkah kita mengucap syukur..??

mengucap syukurlah dalam segala sesuatu. bahkan dalam setiap situasi yang kita hadapi. kerana semua itu sudah ditentukan oleh Tuhan yang memegang kehidupan kita.
adakah dengan risau dengan apa yang akan kita pakai, apa yang akan kita makan,
risau dengan cabaran2 yang kita hadapi itu, dapat menambah sehasta lagi dalam hidup kita?

mengucap syukurlah sebab dengan itu kita akan sentiasa bersukacita. bahkan kita akan selalu punya rasa rendah hati.. kerana ada yang lebih penting dan lebih besar dari semua yang kita lihat pada pandangan mata..

mengucap sykurlah.. :)

✿~ Wikipedia : I know everything !
✿~ Google : But i have everything !
✿~ Facebook : So what? i know everybody !
✿~ Internet : Hey without me.. you all are nothing !
✿~ Electricity : Silent ! Who's The Boss now ?!!
✿~ Benjamin Franklin: Ehem..ehem..Who's discover Electricity?
✿~ Allah : Well,well. I created all of you.