Resounding silence

This resounding silence is so loud, I had to express myself here tonight. I think my brain is about to explode. There are so many things comes to my mind right now. I wonder where is my stable life. I feel lost in this silence.

I talk, but why I feel like I didn't say anything,

There are so many voice, sound, loud and clear.. but silence seems to empower best in this situation.

I wondered where it went wrong? or at least me.

Maybe my motivation is wrong. But what is wrong with that?

God, once again.. I come before You..

I am a helpless human, a girl trying to be a women. Trying to stand on her own independence. But let me depend on You in my independence.

It is hard, this time.. I need a 180 degree turning to You. 

Let me remember the price You paid for me. 

I hope in the hope that You give. Let me hold on into it.