hello mum..

i know i'll never understand what's her feeling right now. coz i am not a mother. no yet.
but i'm sure i will. and hopefully i am strong enough just like how strong she is to support dad and the whole family.
i know she sounds sad just now. i gave her a call. its been 2week already. i'm sorry i've been busy. it's not because i wouldn't call, it's just that i'll feel sad after calling her,when i asked about how things going at home,and are they eating well,are they sick or not, are they ok or not..
i knew mum is upset,because of "the problem". i dont know when this problem will stop. or at least heal..if i could put it that way.
i admit, that i hate it. i hate when i know my mum is sad. and i don't know what to do. i'm just so far away.
but i'm glad. my dad is super cool. love you dad! he's the calmest person i've ever met. he'll lost his temper once in a while. and that really scares me. i'll shrink if he ever get mad at me. that's the problem when he sometimes keep quiet. hopefully he'll not explode this tyme. but i know dad is always the rational one. he'll not let emotion takes place. well not all the time. but when it comes to "the problem", he's the coolest dad ever! Thanks God, i knew he went through a lot, struggling with You. that is why i'll admit that i'll never knew a man's heart. but i could guess or at least feel their heart by trying to put my self in their shoes.

i know,i couldn't cheer you up right now mum. i really want to talk you about everything here. but another time maybe? i'll pray..that God will keep us all.. go through this all together. in the mean time, hope everyone is taking care of themselves. i'll come home. soon. and i hope things will get better.

God i don't know what is Your plan in this "problem"..but i have faith in You that You want to show us something,something that we might have forgotten all this while. i now realise that time fly so fast, it's difficult to stay, thus i have to move on.