soO mixed up.. :(

if only..
if only...
if only you know..

> hri ni sy dpt bt x-ray ja..thousand of my cell died..in just one xray..
huuu..hopefully the visa still approve...x mo buat two times..

> today..sedih..i'm soO sensitives today..if only you know..
i've done wat u said..so don't ask me back why i did it..coz u got the answer..

> sedih sbp sy kna mara..beli tiket pulang balik..how do i know..that is why i ask..
sometime i dont know what to do..that is why i ask for an opinion..u expect me to know everything and become toO independent. i know later i will have to depend on my self. but for the time beings when i am still with you all..please help me..i'm helpless...couldn't you understand?

> rasa sedihh ja sy rsa ni..if only i know this would be hard..sy pun dr awal will not apply and hoping toO much study jauh2..what is the point klu i didn't get full support?
kdg2 sy sedih..sy sedar..very clearly yang as a child i depends on ibu bpa.. mcm klu perlu duit..msti minta parents..sbp belum brduit kan..sy sedar..sngat lah..that is why..klu boleh...sy x mo menyusahkan..but what to do..sy pun xda duit n from where i could get money?
terpaksa juga sya menyusahkan...one day..klu Tuhan bgi peluang..semua tu I would like to repay you back..all your sacrifices..for us..
as i grow up..i realise..
when i realize..i am scared..
takut mo menyusahkan..
but i'm looking forward to do my part..my responsibility...

> tp sy percaya..every child tu ada berkat masing2..
and jgn bersandar dengan apa yg kita ada..
tapi bersandar kepada pemberi berkat..
so apa yg telah sy buat hari ini..klu salah..sy minta maaf..
my mistake klu pilihan sy salah..
so i leave it on God's hand..
ada hal yang luar kemampuan saya..luar dari apa yg boleh sy handle..

whatever happens tomorrow..i will not regret..because i already surrendered to God..
amen..

Fish

I wish I had fishes as my pet..is it normal?

Usually people want puppies or kittens or hamster as their pet..coz they are more adorable and we could touch them..

With fish we couldn’t touch or even had a contact with them..

But I think fish is adorable toO..i wanna keep them as a pet..in the future la..of coz.. now don’t have time to take care of them..even my two cats in my house pun sometime I forgot to bagi makan..sebab dorang selalu p rumah jiran..

Dorang?

My mum will always ask me back this question.. because I personify them with panggilan dorang…hehe.. I call them dorang coz I feel more close to them as if the cats are part of the family..

Mum will be so proud if my cat dapat tangkap tikus…hehehe…so cute pula bila tengok my cat bawa tikus tu dkt tingkap..tp bila my cat suda gigit2 tu tikuss..eiiii…sy pun nda mo tengok lagii….geli pun ada..with the mouse la..haha!

Today lots of things happen..tapi petang tdi sy sempat cleep for 1 hour..hujan renyai2 kan..so syok to sleep..huhu.. tp mama kc bgun..dia bwa p makan mee sup. Tiba2 datang mood dia mo mkn mee sup..hehe

Today got acceptance letter from idp. Tgh process la ni. Baru ja hntar email tdi..hopefully idp approve.

Ok la…nnti smbung lagi yaaa….

ces't la vie..

its life...

very common words..overused in writing...cliche..

still.... i like the word..

i'm thinking on using it as my blog title..is it ok?

just now idp call me..and they ask me which uni i would like to go...

waahhh..kecut perut.....i dunno where to go..

got three choice..

uni carnberra

uni adelaide

uni of south australia..

so..at the end i choose adelaide..is it the right choice ??..i think so..

it's the only g8 uni among this three..huhu...

hopefully jpa will approve..

and thanks God..i feel more relieved now...

green light...ody..

but still need to do med checkup..still need to do lots of things..

i know dad must be happy..syukur...huhu....

language is beautiful..

when u put magic to words, it will appear to be so beautiful that you will be amazed..
when you combine a word with another word you will get different meaning which actually come from a single meaning..
simple words, but when you put it beside another word..it'll become extraordinary word..

word can be used to described..yet there are things that cannot be described by words..
from the sound of water lapping on the lake till the beauty of sunrise in the morning..
we could easily describe it by words..
but when it comes to feeling and love..sometime words can't describe..
words is precise but to explain something..you need tons of words..

words form language.. language differ across culture..
appreciate culture..and you'll appreciate the language..
words is beautiful..
language is beautiful..

me..when it is toOo bored here..

Got good news!!

As usual I break my promises to keep up with my journal. I am totally not a person who don't keep my words but because of my laziness and lack of time, I think even my laptop is dusty. And today I feel like i want to write something..

Its been difficult for me this past few days. I totally don’t have any spirit to do even single thing in my house. Even to start arranging back my wardrobe takes time to finish. Up until today, my bed is still messy with my shirts.

And the GOOD NEWS is…I could FLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh^^

Thanks God for the good news. All this are because of HIS grace..another opportunity in mylife..to repay back my mistakes..my valuable lesson in life..

Perlu ada rasa tanggungjawab mulai dari sekarang..yahoooooooooooooo!!

Ben I couldn’t wait to tell you. Pleaseeeeee visit me in Aussie..Thanks God!

Now I don’t need to worry if people ask me or not. Yang penting……..am going to study very hard fom now on. No more turning back. Thanks God once again.

I've sinned and I repent.

God lead me the way!

beaucoup dans l'œil près de mon coeur