left 11days holiday ..

thanks God, exam is over, its quite tiring, very challenging, physically and mentally.
and thanks God i got the chance to have a holiday, a week away for Winter Trip.
and thanks God everything goes well from the first day until we came back few days ago, Tuesday precisely. :)

and its 11days left for my friends and i to spend our holiday before immersing ourselves to the continuous and repeating timetable of uni life. I'm not so sure what is so interesting studying abroad compared to studying in local country. But one thing that i could say here is, you wouldn't expect what would happen or what would you see or encounter on each new day of your life here. There's always something that surprised you. And you will always feel scared and worried what would happen tomorrow. I don't know if i'm the only one who felt that. But that is what i honestly feel.
Everyday seems to be different. And being alone makes things a bit hard for me. Alone not in the sense of totally having no friend. I mean, i feel alone coz i don't have any close friend who had the same course with me. I wish i had one,it would be easier for me to discuss about my study. Hm..maybe this is just one of the challenges that i had to face here. To find a way to make friends and put down all the walls around me, and just go and let myself free, to talk and engaged with new people and make new friends. To throw away all the low self-esteemed. I don't know why, its seems like i am not who i am this past few months since i arrive here. One moment i feel like i could conquer the world and one moment i feel like at the bottom of this world~terkapai2 tanpa hala tuju.

But i know, i will never give up. God had bring me to this, He must bring me through this. That is my faith. I may not know much about what will happen, but to trust everything in God's hand is my only hope.

My Evangelical Student groups had invited me to join the Ministry Youth Camp-a must go event of the year for the Christian uni student,i really want to join them, really want to join this camp, especially to learn more about Galatians and also do bible study with my brothers and sisters in Christ. I am not sure how am i going to join this camp. I prayed that God would sent someone to help me. Even though my financial is not that stable right now after the Winter Trip. I did planned my budget. All goes well. But i'm afraid something will come up, like paying hidden bills or expenses, that will over my budget. God help me so that i'll have wisdom to do my budget and plan my expenses.

and I pray so that God will make a way for me to join this camp. In Jesus name, I pray, Amen.

what else to talk about ?
hmm.. things aren't going the way i expected. But i know that i should always ready to expect the unexpected.
but i'll be okay i guess..
I feel like wanting to pour out what i feel here but i know i'll end up writing nonsense entry. haha :)
hmphh.. anyway.. i'm looking forward to plan for my next sem. I am so going to improve in my study.

My result are out yesterday, Praise to the Lord, i pass all my subject. Eventhough none of them got HD, at least they are all nearly distinction and credit. I'll do better this time. I want to do it as if i'm doing it for God.
I stop complaining and start counting my blessing. And i am so grateful for all the grace God has given me.

There are time i wish i had my family near me. It would be very comforting if i am with them. But i know this is just a matter of time and distance. This is my responsibility as a child. I want to make my parents be proud of me, as i am very proud of them. Love them strongly .:) <3

And i wish all the best to all my friends, my besties, you are all a blessing to me too. :)
treasure you all..
miss you all very much.

Last but not least, i'm planning to have a rest early tonight.
Arrange my clothes, which i washed yesterday. They are all dry i supposed, coz yesterday a bit gloomy, jadi baju sy x berapa kering. Today is a sunny day, so skrang msti sudah kering semua.

Until then, i wish i could update from time to time. It is still holiday, so probably i got plenty of time to update my beloved blog. :)
Good night people.
Give thanks everyday.
God bless you and keep you all always. :)
see ya..