articulating ideas..

i respect people who could articulate ideas in a way that other people could understand..
~.~' this is the effect after reading long2 essay and long2 written research paper.

if you look at all those academic books with hundreds of pages, or long academic writing with thousands of words, what would you think of ?
well, first thing in my mind is..this people is so genius to have such ideas that they are able to articulate them into pieces of academic writing.. for sure if i was given a chance to write, i could write thousands of words. but what will i say?? yes, craps. bunch of craps. maybe only 20% will make sense.
but how does all the writers could write pages of facts, history, opinion, and prediction??? wuhhooaa..that is lotsss of information..

feel like my brain was being brainwashed after reading all those ideas, orthodoxy, policy or whatever they are..
have you ever got this situation ??
gosh..my brain almost got brain attack..too much information to digest..
reading, analysing and finally write it back..7 journals to go ~ ~ ~ ! yeah..

and i hate it when i got such a wonderful ideas but when i start to write them down, they disappear bit by bit..until no more,,they're gone..gone.. then i have to refresh my brain, read all those thing back and try to find what's the idea i got just now, or maybe try to think of a new ideas..-.-'

my God..hopefully i will not lose my mind... :D
okay..craps again...

but the point is..this people make my brain hurt! their bombastic ideas drive me crazy..and i got vocabs constraint..they want academic vocabs not a chunk of ideas with colloquial language!
dush..i should study hard during my AUSMAT..

As a conclusion for the day..
i need to get back to my readings..and just open my heart and mind and be ready physically and mentally for their next torture..
second, i can't escape what's the cost of 'studying'. education doesn't come cheap. we need to sacrifice a lot. but at the end of the day, you know that it is worthed, it is your responsibility, and it is your life. so stop whining. :)
third..i am just grateful. this is great. (ohh...i'm trying to be optimistic)

that's it. i'm just talking to myself. and my head writes them down..