try to fit in..

i think its been a month i've been  here in Adelaide.
there are many things i need to keep up with. especially in study.
i think i'm the only one who take Arts here among my friends especially JPA Sponsored. and sometime being alone make me feel detached from my other friends. i was hoping that i could have friends who would go to uni with me and go back with me. but i know my dream will never come true. so i have to face the reality of being independent here and stop making excuses or being weak in every single obstacle that i face.
to be or not to be is all depends on me from now on.
yeah i did have my group mate in my maths class. thanks God they are brilliant in maths,so i could ask them to teach me more on topics that i'm not good at.
another thing is i tried to let my self free, and see people around especially international student. i would love to build up my confidence. and i want to brush up more my English. so by immersing my self in those group will force me to speak more. but in the mean time i know that i'm under learning process so i'll learn slowly.
but meeting all those people make me wonder,,what will i be in the future. you see, i've never dream of being abroad. and this is my first time. i did miss my family. and today i think my eyes got watery when Laure (new friend) ask me bout how things goes here..and she is very concerned and i am glad God let people comes in my life in such a way.
its been tough but i won't give up easily. this is just the beginning.
i still don't have group mate in development study and economics, but hopefully tomorrow i will find one. and i'll try to fit in with them. God lead me the way..