Today I had English presentation. I've come prepared and I am excited about it. Because this is the first time I prepared my presentation without writing my whole speech so that I could allow myself to speak more impromptu.
However, before the class start, there has been changes in the tutorial classes. Apparently one of the tutor couldn't come today because of urgent matters, so one of the class had to break into two groups and join us.
I heard my friends said that the new room will be on Hughes building, 273. So, did two of my group mates. Because the lift is full, we went to level 2 by stairs..but then apparently we didn't find the room although we've wandered around again and again. It was strange because none of the crowd was there. The level is so empty and quiet. One of my friend finally suggested that we go to level 7 and check the room 723 instead. When we reached level 7, I saw my other group mate waiting for us anxiously. Yes, they told us the wrong room, or maybe we heard them wrong. So, we come in late for about 15mins. But fortunately, my tutor allows a random group to start first. So, instead of waiting for us, other group started the presentation.
We are the second last group to present. Because we start late, all of us had to speak in rush. Or at least, sum up everything within 5mins for each group. Analysing a speech using elements in close reading, and presenting our points within 5mins. When you had 4 members in a group, it seems impossible. This is the first time, I wasn't that nervous. I think I deliver my points direct and clear. HOWEVER, we wasn't finished yet..but my tutor had to stop us. Because of the time! Eventhough, all of us had spoken, there are still 2 elements we hasn't presented yet, which if we got time, will be presented by the 3rd and 1st speaker. And I was the second.
I feel so bad right now. Mostly because, I think I took most of time talking about my points. I have to admit, that I feel like I just speak in a short time, but fuhh~times flies so fast! I guess, it was because speaking is slower than reading? My notes is not that much..but maybe the elaboration took most of the time. And I feel so bad right now. Like, really bad. Although I am not actually sure if I speak that long..but I am really sorry if I was the reason why they couldn't continue to talk about their points. And surely, I will even feel so bad if we got low mark. But I hope for the best.
I write this because I feel bad. And I just want to write them down, as if to put down my guilt. Because as much as I feel bad, I don't want to feel any regret about it, because it happens and I couldn't turn back the time, or change anything about it. Sad, isn't it? But I do realised, there are far more greater guilt that people had experienced in their life. So, I know, I shouldn't whined about it.
One thing that I've learned today, as I write this entry; you couldn't understand why people feel so bad about something because you wasn't in their shoes. Even if it was just a small matter, but who know's it matters a great deal to them. So, don't judge people as if they don't know how to be grateful if they complain or whined about something/ things that happened to them. Because, you didn't know exactly what happened, and the reason why they were acting that way.
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