hidup saya satu realiti yang sy perlu hadapi...
sy rsa ada bnyak pilihan dlm hidup sy perlu buat..kdg2 sy rasa penat berfikir sebap perlu timbang baik buruk before buat decision. ada msa sy buat kptsan yg salah. kadang tu sy happy sebab i make the right decision. kadang rasa takut buat salah. kadang sy berani ambil risiko.
susah kan ? tapi Pengkotbah selalu mengingatkan. enjoy masa muda kita. tapi ingat semua itu akan di ambil kira bila kita pulang kepada Bapa.
seminggu winter trip bagi sy masa sendiri untuk berfikir. sepanjang perjalanan sy bnyak berfikir. sampai sy pejam mata sy masih terus berfikir.
enjoy but i do learn many new things. about myself. about my God. about life.
bila membesar dgn buku2 cerita, sy hidup dgn impian2 yang best2. kadang mau rsa hidup di negara org, kadang mau rsa bgaimana kalau sy hidup disana . .
impian ada ranch@ladang yg ada kuda.. pastu tinggal tempat yg ada empat musim.. duduk tepi tingkap menikmati the best view in mylife.. tgk ladang luas menghijau..air sungai yg mengalir tenang, tepi tasik yang ada pondok ala2 view yg romantik.. rumah agam putih atas bukit, old castle ala2 victorian century, lembah2 hijau, bukit, gunung, salji, bunga, matahari dan autumn..
best kan.... banyak impian sy.. kalau ada dslr, semua tu sy gambar..
masa dlm perjalanan winter trip semua pemandangan di atas sy nampak.. smpi dlm hati..mcm..awww..that is so beautiful..dlm hati..hnya Tuhan ja yg tau betapa puji-pujian hanya untuk Tuhan.. :) indahnya...ciptaan Tuhan..terima kasih Tuhan sbp sy hidup untuk melihat itu semua.
tapi sy pernah diingatkan, ada satu movie ni titled Japanese Story. actor dia suka ambil gmbr. instead of looking by his own eyes. itu lah. ada msa sy rsa biar sy tngok dgn mata sja.. savor the moments.. biar mata tengok semua.. semua.. terleka juga sy, smpi mata berair, rsa panas sbp nda bekelip tu mata.
ya, hidup sy bukan fairytale. usia membawa sy ke hari ini. dan realitynya, sy sdng melalui masa2 muda sy. kadang sbgi rmaja, takut juga membesar kan. tapi kadang excited juga sebap i'm looking forward on what life has offered to me.
terlebih lagi, menjalani panggilan Tuhan utk hidup sy. the purpose of mylife.
kadang sy fikir, rancangan Bapa itu sngt details.. setiap yg terjadi tepat, pertolongan x pernah terlambat.. apa yg sy lalui mengajar sy tentang erti hidup.. dan kebergantungan sy kepada Tuhan. x mungkin sy smpi di sini, siapa sy sekarang ini klau bukan sebap anugerah Tuhan.
Bapaku sangat baik. Sy rindu masa brdua kami.. :) itulah msa paling indah dlm hidup sy.
winter trip mngjar sy utk berjalan lebih lagi bersama Yesus dlm stiap lngkah khdupan sy. mcm2 perasaan spnjng winter trip. bila semua selesai, dn sy pun kembali ke baitul Hanan, rsa rindu pula winter trip.
seindah2 fairytale, bagi sy indah lagi reality. sbp reality itu kekal. tapi still fairytale itu bagi sy bnyak inspirasi.. :) realiti itulah yg sy hdpi, mbwa sy berpijak di bumi yng nyata.. ceh.. cliche kann .:) hehe..
sy x dpt reverse sesaat, ubah sezarah pun my past. sy blh plan msa depan. tapi Tuhan yg akan mnentukan apa yg akan terjadi.
wlpn sy x dpt lari dari rasa risau n takut, apabila tringat yg Tuhan sdah mnyediakan jalan hidup sy, ada satu kelapangan dlm hati. x pyah risau. jalani saja hidup ni. dan peganglah terus tangan Tuhan. sy x akan sesekali melepaskan gengaman tangan sy dgn Tuhan.. sbp sy tau sy x mampu jalani semua tnpa Yesus.
realitinya, sy lahir d negara yg bkn bermusim. kalau sy pndang luar tingkap, cuma ladang padi bukit dan gunung kinabalu sy nmpak depan mata. tapi bagi sy itu indah. tiap kali bngun pagi, itu first thing sy nmpak. ladang padi mngingatkan sy sbgai anak kampung, smngt mngunung tinggi mcm gunung kinabalu ..:) typical me.. :)semuanya manis bila imbas balik hidup selama 19tahun ni..
dan kalaupun ada kenangan pahit, biarlah hidup reality sy pahit. kalau pun pahit, realiti sy indah bersama Tuhan.sy x mau lari dr mnghadapi khdupan. sy manusia. ada msa jatuh bangun. menangis dan ketawa.
Segala sesuatu ada waktunya.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Let me tell u a story about a girl..feel free to read..^^
Long time ago, there was a girl..who devoted her life to God and love her family very much. Always..she wanted to do her best so ppls around her will be happy. She love to love others..and love to be loved. God is love and she loved God very much,thus..she wanted to love everything that God had loved.
One day, she met a man who soon she fall in love with. She’s terribly scared when she realized her true feeling coz everything is not right everytime she look at him. She feels like there’s butterflies in her stomach, she feels like melting when he gave her the ‘look’..and she seems to lost her speech and her thought seems to drift away.. it is a wonderful feeling though but it made her felt insecure coz she always tot that she could control her feeling and emotion..It feels wrong but somehow it feels alright for her to love him.
As years passed, the love grows in her heart like a seed into a blooming flower. its beautiful..She cannot lied to her own heart nymore coz she do love this man very much. There were so many things that had happened between them, which brought them till tis day but amazingly she manage to go thru evrythng evnthough she faced a lot of heart wrenching moments..
She found out that everything she had gone thru with him had taught her so many things about life. Evrytime they had a fight, it makes her draw closer to God as she don’t have nobdy except God. Everytime she missed him till her heart ache, evrytime she wanted so much to say how much she love and care 4him, there’s only one way she could think of..she will kneel down and cries,pouring her heart and pray that God will take care of her beloved ones, her friends and her families.
Now she had traveled to another city doing wat life had made her to choose. evnthough they were miles apart,her love for him is true. She was totally scared to see what the future holds, scared that she wouldn’t make it..but somehow thinking of him gave her strength to move on one step forward..she wants to do it not only for herself but to her beloved family and to her loved ones..and most importantly..she believe that its God’s will.. She do learns a lot, she knows that life is not an easy journey, but to live thru God’s will, she’ll have faith. She may do wrongs sumtime, coz nobody’s perfect, but she did learn from her mistakes.
Now she was not afraid to love him. But it was just the matter of time and the commitment that laid between both of them. Maybe they need times and spaces. Problems do happen and she was trying so hard to hold on. She was confused. between to love and be loved. too hurt to know he's hurt, and too hurt to love him that much and too hurt for the things that have been said. she knows that it's a sin to love him that much but she just can't help it. love is so powerful..its God's greatest grace.
She understands him well and prayed the best 4 him. If to let him go is the best choice to make him happy, she’s willing to do so even though she’ll sacrifice her heart and the overwhelming love she had for him. She could be insane to lose him but as she had faith in God..she wanted nothing except to do wat God pleases.
now that she had confessed her feeling, she's afraid that love could also destroyed her. she had love him innocently and sincerely.. but will their love survived next time?when her love was doubted by him..will she believe him after what had happened?coz now she doubt that its not love between them but only the feeling of wanting to know that someone love them..she always believe b4 but now..after what had happened..it's hard to decide and to think..did he knows that she was crying,trying so hard to fix her broken heart..?will the man she love help her to fix it back?..will love heal the wounds that bleed everytime she put her hands close to her heart..?
She knows that she’s an ordinary person and wanted nothing but peace and love..she was left without too many choices..she wouldn’t want to hurt anybody..except to love..just love..
forgiveness is always in her heart..and she's always more than willing to give it..
It’s life after all. and life moves on. God’s love is agape and praised the Lord he had died on the cross to save me, u and others for the sins we did in the past, present and future. And its all because of love. Always remember that God’s plan is always wonderful to each and everyone of us.
Happy comin Easter Day. Selamat melayani. Playanan adlh 1 ibdah yg mrni d hdpn Tuhan. jdilah anak yg baik..Sy sda mrelakan semua yg trjadi. Jgn rsa mnyesal atau rasa bersalah. Let bygone be bygone. Hidup prlu diteruskan. There’s more in life..and always rely to God in everything we do..
Long time ago, there was a girl..who devoted her life to God and love her family very much. Always..she wanted to do her best so ppls around her will be happy. She love to love others..and love to be loved. God is love and she loved God very much,thus..she wanted to love everything that God had loved.
One day, she met a man who soon she fall in love with. She’s terribly scared when she realized her true feeling coz everything is not right everytime she look at him. She feels like there’s butterflies in her stomach, she feels like melting when he gave her the ‘look’..and she seems to lost her speech and her thought seems to drift away.. it is a wonderful feeling though but it made her felt insecure coz she always tot that she could control her feeling and emotion..It feels wrong but somehow it feels alright for her to love him.
As years passed, the love grows in her heart like a seed into a blooming flower. its beautiful..She cannot lied to her own heart nymore coz she do love this man very much. There were so many things that had happened between them, which brought them till tis day but amazingly she manage to go thru evrythng evnthough she faced a lot of heart wrenching moments..
She found out that everything she had gone thru with him had taught her so many things about life. Evrytime they had a fight, it makes her draw closer to God as she don’t have nobdy except God. Everytime she missed him till her heart ache, evrytime she wanted so much to say how much she love and care 4him, there’s only one way she could think of..she will kneel down and cries,pouring her heart and pray that God will take care of her beloved ones, her friends and her families.
Now she had traveled to another city doing wat life had made her to choose. evnthough they were miles apart,her love for him is true. She was totally scared to see what the future holds, scared that she wouldn’t make it..but somehow thinking of him gave her strength to move on one step forward..she wants to do it not only for herself but to her beloved family and to her loved ones..and most importantly..she believe that its God’s will.. She do learns a lot, she knows that life is not an easy journey, but to live thru God’s will, she’ll have faith. She may do wrongs sumtime, coz nobody’s perfect, but she did learn from her mistakes.
Now she was not afraid to love him. But it was just the matter of time and the commitment that laid between both of them. Maybe they need times and spaces. Problems do happen and she was trying so hard to hold on. She was confused. between to love and be loved. too hurt to know he's hurt, and too hurt to love him that much and too hurt for the things that have been said. she knows that it's a sin to love him that much but she just can't help it. love is so powerful..its God's greatest grace.
She understands him well and prayed the best 4 him. If to let him go is the best choice to make him happy, she’s willing to do so even though she’ll sacrifice her heart and the overwhelming love she had for him. She could be insane to lose him but as she had faith in God..she wanted nothing except to do wat God pleases.
now that she had confessed her feeling, she's afraid that love could also destroyed her. she had love him innocently and sincerely.. but will their love survived next time?when her love was doubted by him..will she believe him after what had happened?coz now she doubt that its not love between them but only the feeling of wanting to know that someone love them..she always believe b4 but now..after what had happened..it's hard to decide and to think..did he knows that she was crying,trying so hard to fix her broken heart..?will the man she love help her to fix it back?..will love heal the wounds that bleed everytime she put her hands close to her heart..?
She knows that she’s an ordinary person and wanted nothing but peace and love..she was left without too many choices..she wouldn’t want to hurt anybody..except to love..just love..
forgiveness is always in her heart..and she's always more than willing to give it..
It’s life after all. and life moves on. God’s love is agape and praised the Lord he had died on the cross to save me, u and others for the sins we did in the past, present and future. And its all because of love. Always remember that God’s plan is always wonderful to each and everyone of us.
Happy comin Easter Day. Selamat melayani. Playanan adlh 1 ibdah yg mrni d hdpn Tuhan. jdilah anak yg baik..Sy sda mrelakan semua yg trjadi. Jgn rsa mnyesal atau rasa bersalah. Let bygone be bygone. Hidup prlu diteruskan. There’s more in life..and always rely to God in everything we do..
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
choices bring change ..
ok la..before sy tidur..mau share dlu la apa yg sy bljr mlm ni.. tapi sy ubah ckit2 la spya economic theory nih boleh kita aplikasikan dlm hidup kita.. :) especially tuk kawan2 yg masih study..
ECONOMIC WAY OF THINKING
~place scarcity and its implication, choice at the center stage.
we can think about every choice as a tradeoff~an exchange~giving up one thing to get something else
~we always think about what, how and for whom..
these question become sharper when we think in terms of trade..
ha..dlm hidup..kita punya banyak keterbatasan.. tapi yang bestnya..kita juga punya banyak pilihan..
bagun pagi saja kita suda berhadapan dgn pilihan..
samada mau bangun awal.. terus pi mandi.. or masuk dalam selimut.. then tidur balik..
apa pun yg kita buat soalan2 5W1H tu selalu menentukan keputusan yg kita ambil..erm..rasanya most of the time kan..
our choice change over time. and the quality of our life improve.
(so jgn risau. apapun keadaan hidup kita sekarang, kalau kamu rasa susah ka..boring ka..nda siok ka.. it will improve juga)
BUT the quality of our lives and the rate at which they improve depends on our choices that involve tradeoff..
apa la ni tradeoff kan.. kalau kita refer dgn hidup kita..tradeoff tu contohnya..
~when people choose how to spend their time(kita punya bnyak masa. tp selalu org bagi alasan nda cukup masa. padahal semua org ada 24h. itu sudah lebih dari cukup)
~choose what the outcome they want..(if u failed to plan. u plan to fail)
ex: kalau utk student mau keputusan mcmana ; HD,D,credit,pass or lulus..
ni quote kegemaran :
if we put more effort,we could reap more.
if we take less leisure time, we can educate and train ourselves to become more productive
if we study more, and devote ourselves seriously (study smart, discipline, perseverance) we will be a better person in the future..(ada masa depan yg baik la)
as a conclusion :
"the choice we make in the face of this tradeoff determine the pace of our life condition improve"
jadi apa pilihan dalam hidup kamu ? bah, buat la pilihan baik2.. :) mat malam semua.
ECONOMIC WAY OF THINKING
~place scarcity and its implication, choice at the center stage.
we can think about every choice as a tradeoff~an exchange~giving up one thing to get something else
~we always think about what, how and for whom..
these question become sharper when we think in terms of trade..
ha..dlm hidup..kita punya banyak keterbatasan.. tapi yang bestnya..kita juga punya banyak pilihan..
bagun pagi saja kita suda berhadapan dgn pilihan..
samada mau bangun awal.. terus pi mandi.. or masuk dalam selimut.. then tidur balik..
apa pun yg kita buat soalan2 5W1H tu selalu menentukan keputusan yg kita ambil..erm..rasanya most of the time kan..
our choice change over time. and the quality of our life improve.
(so jgn risau. apapun keadaan hidup kita sekarang, kalau kamu rasa susah ka..boring ka..nda siok ka.. it will improve juga)
BUT the quality of our lives and the rate at which they improve depends on our choices that involve tradeoff..
contoh pilihan2 :
~how much effort and how much to expect ?
~how much effort to devote ourselves to education and training ?
~how much effort to study and improve ourselves ?
apa la ni tradeoff kan.. kalau kita refer dgn hidup kita..tradeoff tu contohnya..
~when people choose how to spend their time(kita punya bnyak masa. tp selalu org bagi alasan nda cukup masa. padahal semua org ada 24h. itu sudah lebih dari cukup)
~choose what the outcome they want..(if u failed to plan. u plan to fail)
ex: kalau utk student mau keputusan mcmana ; HD,D,credit,pass or lulus..
ni quote kegemaran :
if we put more effort,we could reap more.
if we take less leisure time, we can educate and train ourselves to become more productive
if we study more, and devote ourselves seriously (study smart, discipline, perseverance) we will be a better person in the future..(ada masa depan yg baik la)
as a conclusion :
"the choice we make in the face of this tradeoff determine the pace of our life condition improve"
jadi apa pilihan dalam hidup kamu ? bah, buat la pilihan baik2.. :) mat malam semua.
Monday, June 13, 2011
if no string attached, then shud attached more to God
every monday..i have a compulsory duty.. : masak :)
today's menu : Telur sambal, kubis sos tiram, n wedges plus nasi putih.. :)
i know..nda la sedap mana pun..siap ada rasa pahit lagi tu sambal before kak ana n che eika tolong selamatkan..
coz bawang sini besar2..then kalau x tumis betol2 rasa pahit.. :)
tq k.ana n che eika.. :)
ok la..esok ada kelas .. so mau tidur awal.. study econs jap..
ehh.. sy belum mandi..mau p mandi dulu la,, :)
bye all.. have a good night!
today's menu : Telur sambal, kubis sos tiram, n wedges plus nasi putih.. :)
i know..nda la sedap mana pun..siap ada rasa pahit lagi tu sambal before kak ana n che eika tolong selamatkan..
coz bawang sini besar2..then kalau x tumis betol2 rasa pahit.. :)
tq k.ana n che eika.. :)
ok la..esok ada kelas .. so mau tidur awal.. study econs jap..
ehh.. sy belum mandi..mau p mandi dulu la,, :)
bye all.. have a good night!
bid farewell and goodwell..
mesti kita sedih kan kalau benda yang kita sayang rosak/hilang..
mesti kita sedih juga..kalau kita kehilangan orang yang kita sayang..
nda kira la.. family atau kawan..
apalagi kalau apa yang kita usahakan selama ni gagal..
sedih kan ?
mau ucap good bye pun kadang2 sedih..
hari ni sy tiba2 rasa mcm mau bid farewell and goodbye sama seseorang ni.. :) andai saja dia tau..
adehh..mood jiwang sda si allyn..
adakah pengaruh music blog ni ?? haha~ nda tau la..
should i or should not ?
sampai masa semua kita akan hadapi perpisahan kan..
dan bukan all the time juga kita berblog..
kita tgk ja..sampai bila org yg blogging ni akan tetap setia dengan blog drg..
ada masa..pasti semua org nda mau berblog suda..
bila ??
hmm..sy pun x tau la.. sbp semua org ada hidup masing2.. jadi ikut mcmna hidup dorang la yng akan tentukan.. :) adeii.. si allyn merepek lagi...
hari ni sy mau jalankan operasi :
"UNCLUTTER MYLIFE"
remove and treatment..
supaya..
ada HEALING...
:D baiklah... dekat suda jam 4.30pm ni.. sy mau masak.. awal ??
nda la..Adelaide cepat malam sekarang..jam 5.30pm suda mula gelap.
Malam Panjang...Pagi pendek..:) haha..
mana ada..sbnrnya..panjang juga waktu pagi tu..tapi pagi.. cerah awal sngt.. jam 5 mau terang suda..
mesti kita sedih juga..kalau kita kehilangan orang yang kita sayang..
nda kira la.. family atau kawan..
apalagi kalau apa yang kita usahakan selama ni gagal..
sedih kan ?
mau ucap good bye pun kadang2 sedih..
hari ni sy tiba2 rasa mcm mau bid farewell and goodbye sama seseorang ni.. :) andai saja dia tau..
adehh..mood jiwang sda si allyn..
adakah pengaruh music blog ni ?? haha~ nda tau la..
should i or should not ?
sampai masa semua kita akan hadapi perpisahan kan..
dan bukan all the time juga kita berblog..
kita tgk ja..sampai bila org yg blogging ni akan tetap setia dengan blog drg..
ada masa..pasti semua org nda mau berblog suda..
bila ??
hmm..sy pun x tau la.. sbp semua org ada hidup masing2.. jadi ikut mcmna hidup dorang la yng akan tentukan.. :) adeii.. si allyn merepek lagi...
hari ni sy mau jalankan operasi :
"UNCLUTTER MYLIFE"
remove and treatment..
supaya..
ada HEALING...
:D baiklah... dekat suda jam 4.30pm ni.. sy mau masak.. awal ??
nda la..Adelaide cepat malam sekarang..jam 5.30pm suda mula gelap.
Malam Panjang...Pagi pendek..:) haha..
mana ada..sbnrnya..panjang juga waktu pagi tu..tapi pagi.. cerah awal sngt.. jam 5 mau terang suda..
hari ni nak masak apa..
sampai sini.. baru dpt peluang masak .. hahaha~
bukan apa..
cuma masa di rumah dulu.. mama yang selalu masak.. sebap mama masak sedappp.. hhee
(padahal..si allyn malas masuk dapur) ~~adeii.. mcmana mau jadi sumandak nihhh...
tapi ok la..
siok juga masak2 ni..
dlu masa budak2..rajin pula sy main masak2 kan..
hahaha~
sampai sini.. bagus juga kalau sy aplikasiakn..
ok enuf kerandoman...
hari ni sy mau masak apa aa...
adeii.. sy ni nda pandai masak menu yang spesel2 mcm kawan2 housmate sy nih..
rasanya everyweek klau dorang masak siap masak new resepi.. best juga.. :) dapat try macam2 resepi.. hehehe...
ok la.. nnti sy google apa mau masak.. hahaha!
Google2... ko ni dah jadi sifu memasak pula.. :DDD
bukan apa..
cuma masa di rumah dulu.. mama yang selalu masak.. sebap mama masak sedappp.. hhee
(padahal..si allyn malas masuk dapur) ~~adeii.. mcmana mau jadi sumandak nihhh...
tapi ok la..
siok juga masak2 ni..
dlu masa budak2..rajin pula sy main masak2 kan..
hahaha~
sampai sini.. bagus juga kalau sy aplikasiakn..
ok enuf kerandoman...
hari ni sy mau masak apa aa...
adeii.. sy ni nda pandai masak menu yang spesel2 mcm kawan2 housmate sy nih..
rasanya everyweek klau dorang masak siap masak new resepi.. best juga.. :) dapat try macam2 resepi.. hehehe...
ok la.. nnti sy google apa mau masak.. hahaha!
Google2... ko ni dah jadi sifu memasak pula.. :DDD
Saturday, June 11, 2011
its offficially Winter at Adelaide
Scrapbooking
yup, its Winter here! wlpun dlm gmbr xda salji..
tp mmng betol pun..Adelaide xda salji..
hnya certain place ja ada..cuti
winter ni nnti ada trip bersama senior and kawan2..
i'm looking forward for it.. yeahh.. :)
its freaking cold here.. siapa pernah pi Bundu Tuhan ? Kundasang ? Hotel Pine Resort ?
aduihh..kalau x pkai jacket..just baju T yg nipis.. haaa..macm tu la sejuk dia cni.. hhu~
i'm in need of heater tpi belum beli2 lagi ..
exam..
sejuk..
buat saya lapar 24 hours..
haha..
pulang msia nanti GemOk la sy nih... :DDD
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