Gravity

Sara Bareilles - Gravity



Its Thursday and I'm counting the days as my final exams is approaching. Winter is here. And it's getting cold each day. As Autumn goes by, now.. most of the leaves on the trees had fall. It was brown before, and now, it seems like all the trees are dying! But to no surprise, Adelaide is alive with its lush green trees everywhere. No wonder, my friend told me once that she likes winter in Adelaide because we can see lots of green trees and roses blooming in the garden. It is actually almost like Spring where the air is much fresher and flowers are starting to bud. I am hopeful that Spring this year will be as beautiful as last year.

Times do flies so fast. It's almost end of my fifth term here. And I began to realise how short is the time for me to be here. I wish I did more things when I was in my first and second year. And sometime I wish I had one more year here. But I always had a feeling that God had another plan for me. Although there are many times that I wish to know what's exactly God's plan for me in near future, I still love surprises. There is just something beautiful about expecting something that is unexpected.

Anyway, I keep playing this song over a week now. I guess I was in the mood of missing my home. I just don't know why.. everytime I listens to this song, it just remind me of my hometown far away in Ranau. I think I just missed being home. It has been a year now. I'd never imagine I could stay here for a year without going back home. But it was only 6months left, and I'll be back for good.

This song also remind me of a person that I used to care so much. Sometimes I wonder what happen to the person now. But the person was my past now. There are times that I wish I've lost some part of my memory about the person. Because until now, it's still hurt when it all coming back to me. But then, I will not stop hoping and praying that the pain will ease away as time goes by. After all, if I said I have accepted all the things that happen, and I've forgave and forget all that happen between us, then I shouldn't be so negative about it.

Smile and be happy! Move on! Actually I was kind of sick to hear this words. Maybe because it is true that I have to keep moving on and be positive about it. Perhaps the pain that I felt was too much that I didn't realised it makes me kind of scared to think a new possibility- what if I started to care a person again? At this time of my life, I think I am totally not in a position to consider anything.

But then, this shouldn't stop me to achieve bigger things in my life. I still have exams in few days time, and I still have one semester to go. :) So, I wish I could do my best for the rest of my uni term here. I'll be back soon, and I am so looking forward to it. There are so many people that I wanted to meet, and so many things that I wanted to do.

Until then, lets just enjoy this music. And if there is anything that comes to your mind while you listen to this song, feel free to write down your thoughts and share it with other readers. They might have something that they could relate to your story. :)

Hungry at night

I must confessed that I'm writing this in the middle of the night. But I am hungry and I feel like eating heavy meal right now.

Okay, maybe I could use my imagination to distract my hunger for a while. Let me post some food pictures before I go to sleep then.

I went to a Vietnamese restaurant last Sunday with my girlfriends. And in one of our TIBS on Friday, we've got Iranian friends who are so generous to us that they prepared dinner for us.

Below are the pictures that I took in both occassion.

Okay..now sleep tight! :)

Full moon..

On the way back from uni, I took this picture. I was too far away from the moon and the only camera I had is my mobile phone.

Not so clear. And not worth posting in my insta. But it is more wasted if I didn't post it somewhere. So I ended up posting it here.

I thank God for His wonderful creation. :)

Blog updated!

yeay..after years of thinking and calculating..haha! finally i updated all my blogs and put it one here. hopefully no more changes.

biarlah post yang lama2 tu..bnyak yg sy belum cek. banyak yg half way complete. biarlah jadi sejarah.

after analysing my thoughts and writing this past three years, sy sedar yg emosi sy nda consistent oh! haha..
meby sebab bnyak ups and downs kan.. tapi tiapa.. siok juga tu mo tgk hidup sy cmna..haha~

okay la..till then

"I will do better next time"

Ramble about student life, today I got my midterm result. Quite sad with the result I got. I did many careless mistakes. Most of them are the answer that I didn't trust enough is the right answer. The questions are a bit confusing and I've written down my answer, but did some last minute changes. I found that, the first answer is correct. :'(

True False   x

So, that is what I got. Wrong, coz the first answer is actually the correct answer. Did this ever happen to you?? I guess yes. Sad isn't it. huu~

To comfort my heart, I said to myself that "I will do better next time!" And I will.

Lesson: #Trust your instinct. 

            #Sometime, your first answer is always the correct answer.

missing my homeland

Resounding silence

This resounding silence is so loud, I had to express myself here tonight. I think my brain is about to explode. There are so many things comes to my mind right now. I wonder where is my stable life. I feel lost in this silence.

I talk, but why I feel like I didn't say anything,

There are so many voice, sound, loud and clear.. but silence seems to empower best in this situation.

I wondered where it went wrong? or at least me.

Maybe my motivation is wrong. But what is wrong with that?

God, once again.. I come before You..

I am a helpless human, a girl trying to be a women. Trying to stand on her own independence. But let me depend on You in my independence.

It is hard, this time.. I need a 180 degree turning to You. 

Let me remember the price You paid for me. 

I hope in the hope that You give. Let me hold on into it.